My Own World

2005-05-20T23:58:00.000-07:00

heyys people!

i've moved to http://crapplistic.blogspot.com ! relink me ya =)

2005-05-17T23:57:00.000-07:00

travelled down to tp today. alone.
yes, a-lone.
with no one driving me this time.
and no other form of companionship either.

the one-way journey took me exactly one pathetic hour!
i thought i'd gone bonkers after those lengthy rides.
anaesthetised might be the appropriate word for it.
coolest still, i missed my alighting point.
yays! like how dumb. hah.

thank goodness its only a trial.
i'll get mightier! !

2005-05-12T20:10:00.000-07:00

Diagnosis:
my mind not only wanders, sometimes it leaves completely!

2005-05-08T01:30:00.000-07:00

SYF RESULTS

CHOIR : SILVER (The Best Words Are The Words Sung)

2005-05-08T01:25:00.000-07:00

CHINESE DANCE GROUP: GOLD

2005-05-08T01:23:00.000-07:00

INDIAN DANCE GROUP: GOLD WITH HONOURS

2005-05-08T01:22:00.000-07:00

MALAY DANCE GROUP: GOLD

2005-05-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

DRAMA: GOLD

BAND: SILVER

2005-05-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

WE I MUST USE TIME WISELY and forever realise that the time is always ripe to do right

2005-05-06T23:09:00.000-07:00

im one good rotter

yupps. rotter. and as a good rotter, i've been rotting in the house of mine for days without any accomplishment.
am i suppose to be proud of myself or not? x)

2005-05-04T13:32:00.000-07:00

this is something that i REALLY dread - orientation that comes with the initial 'O'

Details of week 'O' Orientation:

Dates: 19 & 20 May 2005

Reporting time: 8.30a.m.

Note: Attendance at week 'O' orientaion is COMPULSORY. Attendance will be taken*

Things to bring along*: Extra clothes, wear dark colored tops, comfortable bottoms, and no skirts are preferred.
___________________________

sense a really bad omen.
never mind about the first asterik. im more concern about the second one instead!

extra clothes, dark colored tops......
gosh. what do they think they are going to do to us?!
drench us? make us roll on some muky and yucky mud like a swiss roll?
freak! they'd better not.

oh man. this is terribleeee.

2005-04-30T18:42:00.000-07:00

ta-dah! trina.you-know-who.sitong

2005-04-30T18:40:00.000-07:00

riccia.yukiko."you-know-who".trina

2005-04-30T18:38:00.000-07:00

Shamni's not posing for me*

2005-04-30T18:36:00.000-07:00

a picture speaks more than a thousand words.
[we are studious!]

2005-04-29T19:06:00.000-07:00

the weather's friggin' hOttttt!!
its making me drown in perspiration.
tsk tsk.
irksome.

2005-04-29T11:43:00.000-07:00

I detest feeling and being bored. But i've been feeling like this for the past few days: watching tv(although it's not showing anything nice), surfing the net aimlessly, reading & blah blah blah.
Bordedom is settling into my life.

2005-04-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

my concluding day .

and the thought of it makes my stomach churn.
it was a perfect fall day, warm and clear and bright, the sky as blue as can be; it was so beautiful and gay it felt like a mistake. shouldnt the world be gloomy? as in im leaving?
like duh. why should it be anyway.

its a torment - to part.
honestly the distance is nothing; it is the first step that is difficult. im apprehensive that i'll be forgotten and erased from their memory disk. juvenile mindset. but wont you feel the same if you were in my shoe? im crushed.

back to reality.
teachers and students were astounded by my decision to leave- mr raj, mr heikal, mr aslan blah blah. and i think i really did shocked the hell outta mr aslan? he updated me with the fact that he used to be a staff of yio chu kang sec, BUT he left when we'd just been recruited to the sch. sad can.

oh, by the way this goes out to 05B1 if anyone of you are reading it:

05B1 ROCKS!

05B1 really rocks k. they held a surprise farewell party for me and guess what? i broke down- in front of them. darn horrified by my lack of self-control. but on the contrary, how am i supposed to control my own emotion when this is gonna be the LAST time i'll sit in the class ; LAST time i'll attend tutorials and lectures with them, LAST time i'll have my SRP with them; LAST group discussion. there's just so many last..

took hell lot of pictures with them after GP tutorial(the very LAST lesson of the day). and i felt the stinging feeling conquering yet again. never underestimate what it can do to you. gave the girls a warm beary hug and left shortly- unwillingly. the ride back home was terrible, knowing that you wont get to see them the next day in school (anymore).. life will be terribly boring without vicky's crap, jacq's pok-craziness, sitong's "you-miss-me-anot", didi's disturbing, trina's companionship..

oh dear. what have i got myself into?!

[[dropped a short testimonial for cresencia and nimi to apologise for leaving without saying a single goodbye. nevertheless, thanks for making my stay in MI worthwhile.]]

you told me not to frown but i tell you i've forgotten how to smile...

2005-04-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

insomnia.
i cant get to sleep.
a spasm of grief has contracted my heart.
tomorrow - will conclude my stay in the school.
and my last day of service as the class's Econs rep.
for the past few days, i've been going to sleep with a heart so heavy and wakes up in the morning to the sun with the same heart, perhaps heavier.
i dunno. it just felt so awful.

there comes to a point when you feel that you cant bear to part with the class that you are already emotionally attached to.
its terrible. really terrible.
like tearing a part off your body and ruining it.

everthing's changing. i've been waiting for changes, then when everything is determined im actually dying for things to go back to being how they always were.
but i know it will never be possible.
no longer...

2005-04-21T21:25:00.000-07:00

not feeling at the top of the world.

2005-04-21T20:34:00.000-07:00

CCA

First choice: Entrepreneurship Club

Second choice: Speech & Drama (haha)

*E-club is the hottest CCA of the year! !

2005-04-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

i dread thursday!
school ends at 5.15pm - as usual.
tiring affair.

10 pathetic periods excluding the 2 breaks..
can you imagine that?!
can you, can you??
5 periods/day is enough to drain me- physically & mentally.
like o-me-god. faints*

maths was pretty okay.
almost done with the 3rd topic, considerably speedy in action.

chinese was a killer.
i dint understand a single thing taught.
not bad huh?
my soul had already wandered away frm e class.... back home.

2005-04-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

its almost time.
soon, my classmates in sch will know my decision.
i've almost made up my mind.
well. almost.

2005-04-13T20:02:00.000-07:00

yckss SYF achievements so far:

Indian Dance: Gold with honour

Malay Dance: Gold

Chinese Dance: Gold

Choir: Silver

Band: Silver

Drama: ???

am having this hunch that choir & band will be going through a terrible ordeal for the upcoming 2years or so..

but still, well done peeps =)

[i dun practice favoritism like you-know-who]

2005-04-13T19:57:00.000-07:00

went for the s-cube seminar thingy at singapore poly.

and boy, the journey was darn far!

e seminar was pretty ok to be honest. rather interesting.

BUT i swear that this is e very least i need- for today.

did my much delayed 2.4km in e morning ya see.

can seriously feel the heat burning inside me as if i'd just popped out fresh from the oven.

or you might just wanna crack an egg on my body and enjoy the nature saltiness.

ewwww.

gross?

i know.

2005-04-10T12:13:00.000-07:00

president SR Nathan's granddaughter happen to be in my class?

yeah. thats the rumor i've heard for the past few weeks.

widespread by my classmate. haha.

am finally done with my gp assignment. the Mosuo's Matriarchy thingy.

it actually awe me that in the present-day world, tradition martriarchal societies still exist.

women dominated...

hey thats pretty cool ya know?

imagine this matriarchal system being adopted by singapore..

nah. mission impossible.

hmm.. sch's gonna end at 4:30pm tmr. goodness me*

truly appreciate some survival tips.

2005-04-09T20:29:00.000-07:00

international friendship day

duh' i dont even know friday was IFD.
need i mention that i kept passing out? as in i nearly dozed off.
i kept rocking forward and back trying to find a comfortable position to nap.
but to no avail. sad.
whats more? e vp was sitting two rows in front of me!
when do i ever get that chance. hah*

some thoughts to ponder (this qn was shot by the emcees):
why do they sell kit kat bars in even numbers instead of odd?

hey look. i'd been paying attention ok!

2005-04-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

OH MAN. i cant believe my luck !

I GOT INTO TP'S APPLIED FOOD SCIENCE & NUTRITION! ! !

my appeal's successful!

and im goddamn happy man!

cuz that's my desired course!

submitted it as my first 3 choices for the JAE application thingy

[but obviously i dint get in-]

i thought i WONT even stand a teeny weeney chance.

e course advisor in tp told me not to pin too much hope on it b'cause e COP for this course is slashed even lower and a hell lot of people are appealing to get in.

so her bottomline is: it might not be successful.

but whatever it is NOW, IM PRACTICALLY OVER THE MOOOOON !

gosh' it certainly felt like a dream came true.

2005-04-06T19:38:00.000-07:00

failed to check out the choir's performance for SYF.

however, i went with the whole lot of them- spiritually.

im emotionally attached to e choir. even though i barely kept in touch with anyone of em except for a few.

belinda smsed me last night with the news that they've got a silver medal.

huiQing, on the other hand felt that they have let us(the seniors) down. and apparently she's pretty depressed because we got a gold in our previous syf. the ranking dropped. even if so, im still proud of each and everyone of them. yes. i've absolute faith in their abilities.

and now, it sort of brought back some memories of the past.

with practice 3times a week, 3hrs per session, i nearly went bersek. my whole schedule had practically scewed up, leaving me only a few hours of sleep. i'd to juggle between my art coursework, homework, revision, tuition blah blah blah. and thank goodness i wasnt tighted down by the student council cuz that's the time when izzy(iskandar) took over. it very much helped.

however, i felt everything were worthwhile when Ms Jessy (Oskar) called back from Nanyang Girls Auditorium and broke the news to us that we'd clinched a Gold medal. i could hardly hold back my excitement man. the whole lot of us were practically hugging, cheering, tearing for joy. and yes, those were the times.

with so much that had happened, i have yet made a trip back. BUT i still care.

and i promise to make an effort for some visiting hours.

you guys rock!

2005-03-31T19:47:00.000-08:00

for my entire life i've been yellow.

2005-03-30T17:18:00.000-08:00

orientation has been pretty okay.
its just the sickening migraine that's bugging me throughout.
the ground of me being restless.
and yeah. guess what??

i got into my 1st choice of e chosen sub combi!

its a miracle man.
doing 3As' and 3AOs'.
an addition of maths 8744 in my AOs'.
all thanks to my itchy hand.

still. im gonna anticipate earnestly for the pending.
but it seems like a diminutive figure silhouetted at the far end of a long tunnel...

2005-03-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

should ve chose nyp biz management in my first few choices.
everything might have turned out so differently.
but i suppose regrets are idle.
and there comes a point when you suddenly know its too late.

nothing turns out how you preferred. suddenly it's too late cuz you realize you've missed the last train out. but you only know when it's too late to do anything.
this is it and i can no longer tell myself that soon, it will be different.

2005-03-24T23:53:00.000-08:00

fatigued-

left sch early today.
am feeling darn remorseful abt making the SCs ruuning to and fro the general office and gym just to get the form signed.
esp one paricular sc(cant recall his name) whom practically made endless trips for me.
he must be shagged out man.
felt so guilty abt everything.
honestly + seriously*

slept in the car during the trip dwn to tp.
its such a lengthy journey so i thought i might as well make full use of e time.

i need it.

actually, appealing's not one of my choices.
BUT
after mrs tay's speech in the audi, i've changed my mind.
yes, ~~completely.~~ partially?

its soooo true that im [so x infinity] afraid i'll flunk me A's.

tempus edax rerum- which explains it all.

havent i wasted enough??

sigh*

oya, saw par cun today in sp.

dint even realised it until he came and sat beside me.

so dainty--

although we'r like crapping throughout our conversation. lolx

have yet seen some of the peeps frm 404 for quite some time alr.

haha, those were the days....

2005-03-23T22:51:00.000-08:00

quoted frm the previous post:
hols are tormenting - esp to me.

STRIKE THAT OUT!!
~~hols are tormenting - esp to me.~~

i miss my holidays-
i miss reading my novel till the hours of darkness.
i miss snoozing till late mornings (especially).
whatever it is, i seriously need MY SLEEP.

dint expect sch to commence at such an early date.

honestly i wasnt prepared at all- both mentally and physically (for my case).

was sooo lethargic throughout the whole orientation and apparently, i'd nearly dozed off during the subject lectures.

sad.

my brain cells obviously need a shake-up.

and yeah, i could do with a slap too.

2005-03-18T20:31:00.000-08:00

Bookey Marathon -

completed a novel within 2days/less

and now, im earnestly embarking on the 2nd one.

hah*

this is mutual when u'r living in monotony yea?

hols are tormenting- esp to me.

come to think of it, i used to lorrve hols, to bits.

BUT,

it doesnt makes sense to me now.

cuz im dreading it and IT, is getting on my nerves.

really.

so everything's changing, isnt it?

you wait and wait for changes, then when it comes you wish things could go back to being how they always were.

sounds familiar?

take for instance,

you yearn for *life-after-secondary

but when you'r moving on, you realised that it aint actually fantastic(afterall).

not anything you've fantasized it to be.

on the contrary, it turns outta be something different eh?

what's left for me to say.

life's a journey too complicated. i conclude.

2005-03-12T00:09:00.000-08:00

gratitude to miche for the music video =)

i needa be treated. IMMEDIATELY !

2005-03-11T20:18:00.000-08:00

what was it that stung so much?

everything seems to be spinning out in one moment of flash.

05B4's parting officially, with effect of 11thMarch. =(

and what has clung onto me is the same-ol' deep sinking feeling.

i loathe parting.

its never easy.

and i dunch trust my memory AT ALL, to be serious.

it is a net full of holes with all those wonderful reminiscence slipping outta it.

kinda sad isn't it?

oh well, thats part of MY life.

it has become a daily routine to plunge into the maze of paths that wound around the school building after i got off the bus (during thee wkDAYS);

walking under the blue sky that is streaked with pink.

the prime therapy to heal my soul.

gonna miss it.

and how about this terrific home tutor of 05B4 - Mrs Heng.

The contrast between her and the other teachers was a striking one. she was always well dressed, in clothes whose quality and cut made it apparent that they were made of western manufacture; on her well-cared-for hands she wore a discreet number of elegant rings. Her face was carefully made up, and her chestnut-dyed hair, cut short by a skilful hand. and there waffed about her, in delicious waves, there were intoxicating aura of some-famous-brand perfume. Her every-morning speech/stories will always wiggled right into me and settled in (yes, without fail). definitely a teacher of some substance.

gonna miss her too. (and her great philosophy)

somehow, i felt that it didnt ended at all, or ended only because it dint go on, like a game abandoned by the players.

sigh*

nvm that cuz all i can say is: take care of what you let into your life. take care of what you let in, because once you let em in, it's not so easy to get em out.

miss all, love all.

2005-03-08T23:56:00.000-08:00

heyys people'

guess what?

I-M B-A-C-K!!

haha.

like, finally.

thanx ppl-- for ur utmost care & concerns.

im still very much alive.

though thee com had nearly screwed me up (also) in its process of recuperating frm the #1 disaster.

hah*

but who cares?

I've walked out of it - ALIVE.

2005-02-16T16:25:00.000-08:00

finally got over with the GP oral presentation.

and at last, i'll be able to commence my weeks long MOB project.

im tired, of alot of things..

.....

.....

.....

alright, i'll have ta recompose myself and get back ta work.
cant slack anymore or i'll falter.
five minutes of today are worth as much to me, as five minutes in the next millenia..

2005-02-14T23:58:00.000-08:00

im loving it'

2005-02-14T23:57:00.000-08:00

appreciation ta peishan'jasmine'marilyn'pK'aileen'aloysius-

2005-02-14T23:55:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day peeps. (=
and yeah, i mean happy.

this year's v-day was the most significant one i've ever had in e past 17 years of my life.

partially because of TYEM?

yeah..

that was frolic.

cause i happen to be the "financial manager" for like half an hr before pK took over?

haa' [$ . $]

it was indeed a wonderful or rather, more-than-wonderful exposure.

events like this should befall more often to develop more entrepreneurs

-like us.

haa' just kidding.

oh ya.

did i mention i've contrived a new formula?

*vday = pink xmas

[[ there are no great things, only small things with great love. happy are those` ]]

2005-02-08T22:52:00.000-08:00

yeah`
todays' concert was a total blast!
it was smashingly fun..
with Mr Heikal rocking the whole sch.
twisting and shouting (or was it turning?)
how cool..
and *wow*
im utterly amazed.
haha.
really enjoyed it.
though i was so busy meddling with my "stick-man".
hurhur.
happy lunar new year peeps =)

2005-02-07T23:45:00.000-08:00

PE was fun.
the whole lotta us were practically baking under thee scorching sun.
we thought we've all become ginger breadman.
lolx.
and according to Mr Heikal:
we've successfully burn 200 calories of fats in half an hr,
running a distance of THREE km.
pretty cool huh?
felt slimmer instantly
by lil' bits.

*suffering frm serious brain damage

2005-01-31T15:59:00.000-08:00

finally saw the legendary Cresencia (in person, face-to-face)!
gawd, she's sooo gorgeous!!
an absolute babe..
*two thumbs up*

-

2005-01-21T02:03:00.000-08:00

it's 2:03AM now. and im still AWAKE. Eyes are wide open. COOL x)

(o'.'o)

2005-01-20T12:59:00.000-08:00

yeah man.

had a marvellous tyme with manda and fang today..

its been sucha looong tyme since i felt so jubilant..

and frankly, it was my best day ever since e new year has begun..

i've been anticipating to this day cuz its been for almost 8 months since i last saw amanda? and gosh, this buddy here has become sucha ravishing lady.. really.. with all da new image and stuff.. i do felt like some kinda alien standing besides her.. or maybe i just am.. haha..

Oya. cross dressing has become a trend for thee student in sch. it's kinda weird when ya see girls in pants and guys in............. skirrttt?!!! can ya imagine tat?! *cover my face* it really set me wondering if im existing in e right era.. and there was this guy frm my HG who's practically flaunting in his CHIJ uniform! gosh' - how "cool" can that be.

- - -

2005-01-18T19:06:00.000-08:00

it's been for days.. or has it been weeks.. for those wondering why i havent blog in ages.

it's not because of e slothful bug inside me. *definitely a no-no*

neither is it because im tied up by my own stuff.

its just that there's nothing out in this world that seems appealing enough for me ta blog in here.

alright, i know its crappy.

enuff said.

*pOof*

...

2005-01-08T01:15:00.000-08:00

the week has finally come to an end..

orientation have been frolic much to my astonishment..

and not forgetting that e SCs were sucha eminent bunch of people; esp the OGLs of my class- reckon that -awesome- is e perfect word to use on em..

i realised that if i were to compare e SCs in e campus to e 2oo1 batch SC(yckss) im in, i'll say that its a h u g e difference ya? somehow, i feel that they possess a stronger sense of leadership qualities and they work as o-n-e to make e orientation a blast man! 3 cheers to em!!

anyway, pole dancing seems to be a trend for those SC being forfeited. poor souls having made to do that in public. wad a "great" way of providing visual entertainment for e freshmen huh? *roll my eye* nevertheless, i admire their boldness cuz i aint got e guts for tat stuff, ya noe.

have attended 2days of lectures and everything went pretty o k a y so far. at least they dun bore me. haha.

alright, guess i'll update more stuff e next time ya?

*hugs*

my repentance

2004-12-31T10:15:00.000-08:00

conclusion:

im not a good sis afterall.

i had a bad temper.

im unreasonable.

i've been over-demanding.

and she has to put up with my juvenile demeanour all the tyme.

i felt really remorseful,

i really am.

anyway,

this goes out to you if u'r reading it...

O.O

2004-12-30T22:30:00.000-08:00

went to the doc days back.
he wasnt on duty.
sharks.
another traineee doc's in charge. ((great` :x
and wow.
he looks like william hung.
he bangs.
* c h u c k l e s *
on another glance, he resemble smurf?
alright, i shouldnt be that mean.
bleah``
he says i had to abstain from dairy product & junk f00d
-- which means NO milk. NO cheese. NO chocolate. NOTHING!
C00L. X)

- 0h well -

2004-12-29T01:42:00.000-08:00

christmas's over. everything's back ta normal. ((well..maybe``
g0t a watch & sm chocolates for my christmas. *perfect

it's kinda funny how things can change-- entirely. we live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing. perhaps im not being observant enough? well, i couldnt care less, whatever happened, happen! * s i g h * i or rather WE have done what we could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in.. im gonna forget em as soon as i can.

the weather tonite literally made me cold. all the little hairs on my skin lifted and a chill settled somewhere between my ribs. kinda exaggerating huh`` ok, maybe im supposed to be terrified. * s h i v e r s * wahaha -.-"

alright, it's late; time ta turn in. marking my words-- tomorrow is a new day and i shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with my old nonsense.

dreaming`

2004-12-24T15:30:00.000-08:00

cant believe it's x'mas eve t0day. *punch* *pinch* *slap*
alright` it's REALLY x'mas eve..
a wk m0re and im gonna be deprived 0f my slothful lifestyle.. I-DREADS-IT``! * Nevertheless, i'll have ta make the best outta it yea..? afterall, i've wasted enuff tyme... * sigh *
and MISS LIM FANGRU, im still waiting for ur aknowledgement for sly's (( I dream)) lyrics t0 be br0adcast in ur bl0ggy..
* why am i waiting``` *

alright, enuff of my thrash. i'll make a move and continue sticking my eyes t0 e telly..

| May Be... |

2004-12-23T15:30:00.000-08:00

Life's been alright s0 far.. just that im still in a sl0thful state, and im g0nna try ta get use t0 that ((i simply have t0``

0ff and on, i w0nder what has g0tten int0 ppl that makes 'em change. seems t0 me that there are several reas0ns f0r that. arrGh`. well, perhaps the main reason f0r this dreadful change in her, might be because she's just tempered by time yea? *sigh*

Things have changed, n0t f0r the better if u asked. it enters and leaves, in just a moment 0f flash. pretty pathethic eh`.. it cant be helped, f0r all life is an experiment. t0 factually named it out, we'r n0thing but guinea pigs *sn0rt*

d0 h0pe she'll wake up just in time t0 realise that it was an illusi0n afterall, but.......

#h0pe is the denial of reality#

taking 0ff......

2004-12-19T22:24:00.000-08:00

Catch my cute cuzzie[Steward] on Channel 8- Double Happiness, 7pm. He's one of Meili's twin.. Yeah*

hAhA

2004-12-16T21:24:00.000-08:00

hadnt update me bloggy for a -long- tyme yea. hah! idling almost everyday after e exams ended. Aw~ tat was so couchy!!! bleah =p.. hmm..perhaps, it's all destined tat im gonna couch at hm and slumber.. Gonna be real sloggy w/o my sis ard in the evening. it's her German language class again tonite..
Check my PAE results today.. got into my first choice of sch - wasnt feeling a single bit ecstatic..*shrug* it's jux for fun anyway..
caught myself in a dilemma whether to go back to TGB or report on 3rd jan. gosh~ really missed those hordes of girls. haha.
saw michelle several wks ago, on the train *karen & i were heading hm after a hectic day in town* chatted with her for more than 45mins or so (nonsense not included).. oh man, really miss those days in e office..

Lifted spirit

2004-10-12T04:40:00.000-07:00

bored to the core today, but geo and poa lessons were fine. had 2 free periods during EL. the physics paper lying ryte i frnt of me, yet my mind was wandering ard. pondering abt numerous stuffs. *sigh*
feelin a lil' betta today. nat so downcast anymore, spirit lifted (by a tiny bit).
was talking to ms yeow after chem lessons today. realised that her msg do make sense. was thoroughly enlightenend. perhaps a halo had just formed above my head.
she's ryte. i should fight this war mentally while doing it physically or it'll be futile.. what am i bck for?

11oct - A Heavy-Hearted Day

2004-10-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

Mood: Downcast
Why: *shruG*
hmm.. feeling rather huffy today. it was a backbreaking task for me to put on any smile. sch was bored like hell today and it was freezing cold all day long. Everybody seems so sober today (i mean my usual grp) as if smth really bad has happened. Regina's still so gloomy as usual and it really worries me (alot) cant seems to get her to blurt out all her ailment and she dint speak much to either one of us today. hmmm..
My spirit for the day plunged to the extreme after break. Frooze in action when i saw mr mah entering the clz with all the papers in his hand. Arggh. That very moment, i wish hard that i could come up with some stupid excuses and get out of that rm asap. tsk tsk. once again, my "sensibility" ceased me. No point running away frm it all the tymes. why cant i, once and for all face it and dealt with it like a adult. *shruG* guess i'm not at tat stage yet. O.O

404'2003

2004-10-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

miss 404'2003.. our joy n laughters..
i miss:
-404 dozing off in mr poogan clz, making fun of his moustache. haha
-Kooichi & Gerald's bickering session abt political issues.
-S.H.E(shufen..meijuan..diana) Ooohhh.. and their singings
-ms ow being teased bY the guys abt her "relationship" with Mr Ng
-ms lim's CL class.. loads of fuN..
-Machi/5566..(ratha curious why i'm missing em..=p)
-Diana's common phrase --"got suan mei(sour plum) ma?"
-The "shut up duet -- Huiwen(thou i c this ger almost everyday,hah!) & Vishnu
Huiwen is the "Shut" and Vishnu's the "up"
-Bee Peng's singing ---> My Fm player!!! haha..
-one of Sidah's cOmmon phrase- "Stop acting like a sissy la, Vishnu!"
- Dominic's morning routine -- Nose Rubbing Time~
-the art rm. the last min rushing of our O lvl coursewrk. stayed in e art rm til 10pm before the DEADLINE day.
-->the art students are rushing like mad for e coursewrk
-->the first tyme in my whole life, i've seen 'em so serious
-->and mayb the songs played in the artrm.. so inspiring.. so awww~ relaxxxY..
-->was feeling dwncast when our work was finally sent to MOE. b'cuz tymes that we spent togetha will be minor
- And where's Dylan "no-chair"? Gone!?
Overall, really miss 404'03. They simPly rOck my lifE...

2004-10-10T07:23:00.000-07:00

The 27 Angels. (3 Missing-in-action)

wOw`

2004-10-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

OhMiGod! got ta really juicy news or gossip thru my fren!!! shock.stunned.astounding.stupefied.appaling was my first reaction. perhaps a lil' excited? though it does not relate or affect me in any extent. Haha. But anyway, this was the most extreme gossips i've ever heard for so long..

Never Give Up

2004-10-09T17:34:00.000-07:00

a trip down to the lib with regina today had showered me with numerous thoughts.
every single word she said was heart-rending. i can feel her grieve in between those words. *sigh* jux rmb that you are not allowed give up at the last lap. we'r almost there, to the finishing point.

Core of all trouble

2004-10-01T06:27:00.000-07:00

Realise that life is sucha a brittle thing. you'll never expect what's coming next into your life. things might seems perfectly fine this moment and becomes a nightmare next. i feared it to the core. why of all people did it happen to me. i'm so afraid. i felt as if i'm living in total darkness. symtmes i really wanna sought for help. but to whom? i'm my own saviour. only i can haul myself out of this terrible ordeal. nobody but me.
there was tymes when i ask myself why do i have to do this? why start all this mess? i'm the cause of all troubles. i started this whole mess and i should learn to pick it up, by myself. i cant run away nor hide from it. it's futile. how long can i hide? till 10yrs later? or 50 yrs and so fore? i dun know... i'm so vexed. argh.
[i'm the ruiner of my life]

A thought to Ponder

2004-09-13T03:42:00.000-07:00

*pOOoOf!* tHere goes my prelim prac.. it's gone-case man..so there'll not be any heehee or haahaa today.
panicking thru'out the whole prac.. messing here, doing there.. rubbing here, cancelling there.. Gosh! wad am i doing.. i dunno either.. hmmm.. quite pissed today.. hate being pester.. AHhhh! *clutching my neck* i cant breathe...
sOoo stressed.. 49more days to the "biG"-day.. sOooon, it'll gonna be a load off my mind yea..or do i call that a "brand" new start for me?Mmm... cant wait..
the feeling was a whole lot diff compared to last yR.. i was showing those heck-care kinda attitude this time last yR.. but this yr.. i'm breaking out in cold sweat... *drippiNg*
tOo muCh recaps and senti` today.. shant pull dwn my own mood anymore.. tAta.. o.o

Ohhh

2004-09-10T19:10:00.000-07:00

Phew~ -o- finally ta physics test is over. this is sucha great relief to me.. have been waiting for this day ye.. dun think i'm gonna do well for this test cuz i wrote alotta rubbish, thrash in the papers. jux pray that mr mah wont tear up my paper and i will consider it a blessing. Lolx.. somehow i just have ta look on e bright side. If u think i'm those kinda "care-less" girl, so be it, if you think i'm not serious, well, so be it. I'm jux me. YEah!
hMmm, had a trip to e liB alone. somehow excited abt reading e novel i've just borrowed.(it's a continuous one) it's abt three successful ladY... i'm not gonna elaborate, you'll jux have to read it yourself yea - City Girls, City Woman & City Lives(i'm here!)
Had a chat with TzeHui in msn. guess she already know abt my "case".. i'm truly touched when she said those encouraging words to me, telling me to approach her if i've any prob. I was like: Ah`~!!!*glad to have a fren like her* somehow felt so guilt-ridden cuz i dint tell her the fact myself. she knew it from smone i suppose.. this proves that there'r still somone who cares..really.. my iron-hard like heart had jux been melted by e kindred spirit tat still existed..
i'm glad, really glad......

Bored..Bored & Bored

2004-09-03T03:24:00.000-07:00

hMm.. so bored.. wanna share some latest gossip with mOi sister but she's still in e campus having her German clz.. guess wont get ta see her for hOOours till i become an owl? lolx.. had been slacking around like nobdy's business since i've got hm.. done abit of reading n den huG my textbk to slp. haha. ratha unique huH..
saw my sitting plan and DARN! i'm sitting alone, rite in e front! Omg`! this is certainly terrible + horrible.. i hate it. cant they just reshuffle the seats again? dun wanna that invigilator to stare @ me while i do my work. well, at least i can camouflage myself if i sit @ e bcK..
ArrrGggh~ nvM.. i'm again behaving like a 3-yR-old kiD. have more rms to grow uP. fancy smOne so "elderly" like me gruMbling over e seatinG plan. nobdy's pErfECt i guess..
have yet to prepare for my chem test tmr.. wad's e use of preparing when i know i'm gonna fail again. nevertheless, i'm still gonna sit for that test coz i'm taught e Never-Say-Die attitude.. *applause pls* lOlx..

wOor-Oh

2004-09-03T01:42:00.000-07:00

hMmm.. Guess facts cant be faced so easily afterall.. had an adventurous time in sch during T'day.. (only e 3 of us knows it well).. hMmmm.. mentally troubled eversince tat day..ArggGgh`! & i'm getting quite mentally unstable.. so peepx, beware ya..? lolx..
hMm, mOi sista is gettin bZ-ier day-by-day whilst me,- lamer.. haha.. maybe it's e influence of my "sista5" gang.. or sholud i say I HAVE influenced them.. feel so bad.. caused em to be sucha lamer+ lunatic like me.. exam's are approaching and i can C 'em waving @ me over there------>
saying hi to me, encouraging me..
anyway, had a really wonderous dream last nite. had fun telling-off tat darn relief teacher.. he's sucha a tyrant who is ridiculously sarcastic and has lousy attitudes. just e sight of him makes me wanna puke. jux one day, i'll punch him in e face, follow by kicking him in e tummy, and then dispose him to e thrash bin. haha. how fun would tat be yea?
Hmmm, maybe not.. dun wanna pollute e thrash bin.. it'll be damn upset.. Okok, let's not continue abt tat disguisting fella. hate tat barbarian so!

Take Me Away

2004-08-30T04:34:00.000-07:00

Don’t wanna grow up
I wanna to get out
Hey, take me away
I wanna shout out
Take me away,Away,Away,Away,Away,Away,
Round and round here we go again
Same old start, same old end
Turn my headAnd turn back again
Same old stuff never ends
Do this, do that
Can’t deal Can’t deal with that
I tune in, tune outI’ve heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why,
Goodbye,Goodbye,Goodbye.

hMmm...

2004-08-30T04:14:00.000-07:00

tmR's gOnna bE e Face-the-fact day for me.. will be seeing quite alot of my last-yr's clzmate in sch. i know i cant hide foreva, so i'm gonna be brave and just face it. the truth has to be out one day yea? sMhOw, i'm getting the butterflies in my stOmach whenever i think abt tmr's matter. bOOsting my courage thru Lindsay's sonG though it has got nth to do with courage..haha.. Just hope that i'll get thru it asap. *Bless me*

BonjOur`!

2004-08-30T03:51:00.000-07:00

bonjour les gens!! had a hectic day today.. softball aint fun @ all, esp e running part, sOOooo tired.. Limbs are already wobbly like nobdy's business.. haha, but on e other hand it really helps to burn off excess calories.. wahaha.. hMmm.. all of a sudden, really missed my pri & sec sch frenx.. hopefully, i'll get thru it soon or they'll suffer frm some "miss-by-me" flus. haha.. Exams are just round e corners.. i'm worried, but not doing anything to it.. i'm hopeless..
haix.. wondering when's tat stupid guy gonna declare his love for my sister.. slowpoke !#%^%#&*^($

recOunts

2004-08-28T01:02:00.000-07:00

jUx had mOi swit 17 last wK. had an awesOme b'dAy in scH esp with my "sista5" gang ( shAnt publish it, shall let it remain a beautiful memory lying in my heArt..)
Rite nOw, i'M jux feelin damn bOred , slacking in frnt of e pC typinG ruBbish..nOnsense..thrAsh.. lOlx.. nOt at all in e mOod for revising.. i'm sOOo tirEd.. my brain is jux nOt wOrking toDay.. & i'm tOO lazy to set my legs to the mall ta shop for T's day giFt..
Many thOughts rushinG up my mind recently(scH, exAms, sCh, exams..blahx`).. they seems to be haunting me and burying me alive.. but who cares, i'M gonna slp it oFF. tmR will be a brand new dAy ahead. ahAx.. 0-.-0

alOha`!!

2004-08-28T00:12:00.000-07:00

dAy Oneyyyy: (the dAy my *sEcrEt diaRy* wAs bOrn- 280804)
Let's celebrate e biRth of my blOggY!! [partie de let's !]